Emotion is something I can’t escape. It’s something I encounter everyday, whether it’s my own or someone else’s. It’s a part of human nature that’s very fickle.
I dislike showing emotion; after that, it usually takes over the rational part of my brain. The most prominent example is the week leading up to my grandmother’s funeral last year. How it still haunts me today.
Being a young girl, the stereotype defines me as having uncontrollable emotional swings. Sadly, this is true at various points. When I heard that my grandmother passed, it wrecked me. Literally. It ruined my composure. There were times I wanted to get up in the middle of class and scream my head off. Other times, breaking down was the escape.
Laying in bed and imagining my grandmother’s voice. It took me back to those times when I was little, when it all made perfect sense. Over time, logic unravels. I was spiraling out of control as I thought of her stories.
Hearing her describe her baptism as a young woman was a prime moment. “It was like the gates of Heaven opened, and everything was white. I felt alive.”
That weighed me down like it was a sack of bricks. I would give anything to hear her tell that tale one more time. I would give anything to have her sit next to me one more time.
I wrote about her passing earlier this year, and it wasn’t enough to make me feel okay. Sometimes, I feel it’s impossible to seem content with her passing. This is why I hate emotion; it’s a monster that strangles you until you can’t breathe, and then it lets you fall to the floor, gasping for air. As soon as you feel strong again, it attacks again.
But, earlier this year, it all made sense again. Sonoma. Clint Bowyer captured his first win with Michael Waltrip Racing. That wasn’t the biggest story to me, however. Kurt Busch’s post race interview was the focal point. His third-place run was practically a win for Phoenix Racing. With tears in his eyes, he talked about his team and how much he wanted to win, never giving up even after something broke in the car.
You could say he faked the tears, but I believed they were real. The picture of Kurt hugging his girlfriend is there in my head. Although some don’t believe it, he has a heart. Emotions.
Seeing Kurt that grateful didn’t make the pain of losing my grandmother go away, but it numbed it a bit. It isn’t my favorite moment of the season because it was so moving. It’s my favorite moment because it made me understand the human nature, MY nature, more.
Since I got those thoughts off my chest, I will now answer your questions.
What your favorite track would be to visit and why? -@xxdalejrxx88
Darlington is the one place that enchants me. It’s known as the track Too Tough To Tame. I want to see its wild side in person. A part of me, though, wants to say Indianapolis because of the history.
Those two are special, but if I had the opportunity to go to any track, I’d be forever grateful.
How long can Dale Jr. hold onto the points lead? Inquiring Jr. Nation minds want to know. -@Racinallout
Simple answer: as long as he can keep his head in the game. He’s a different animal this year, and what he has done is impressive; completed every lap, snapped a winless streak, gained confidence.
If he can keep his energy going and good finishes, he will hold that points lead until The Chase rolls around.
Do you think Sam Hornish will be in the 22 car next year? -@KVP_10
I think so. Sam was moved to the Nationwide series to gain more experience in stock cars, after a rocky transition from IndyCar to NASCAR. To me, he’s ready to give Cup another try.
In my head, this will lead to Ryan Blaney filling the #12 in Nationwide, since Penske is getting him seat time in the #22 this year. Many are saying Parker Kligerman should be in that seat, but I feel that Brad Keselowski will cut back and let Parker to fill his #22.
How is NASCAR going to get the fans back to the track? -@tim_rfr_rpm
It’s obvious attendance is lacking this year, and that’s due to our slow economy. It breaks my heart to see empty stands. It even hurts more when I would gladly fill one more seat. (Hey, every bit counts, right?)
But, truthfully, the racing isn’t as ‘exciting’ as we’d expect. I don’t think that’s something we can change, though. Not with intentional cautions, or getting rid of the Top 35 rule. That’s just how it is.
Making deals with local hotels to cut down prices on race weekends could help. Maybe give fans a special stub to show the hotel clerk, and they get 30% off a room? That could boost things a bit.
Have a good week, folks!